Days of Winter, Days of Pain

I am tired of fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, backpain and heartache! Everything has hurt for so long that I can't remember a time that I didn't hurt all over. But today seems to be worse than I've had in a long time! I wish there was a way to take a 'bath' in lidocaine-lol! I have been trying to knit my sons things he needs before he leaves on the 22nd but I just can't knit or crochet for very long because my hands are swollen and in pain. No one understands especially my husband. Why do most men think you want sex 24/7-even when you are in so much pain you can barely move! I hate that so much! I also have to worry about my son who is at the Utah State Mental Hospital in Provo, Utah. He went there to get his medication regulated but they didn't give him his meds for two days, the doctor forgot to order it, then this same stupid doctor won't even check a large lump he has on his upper left side. He is supposed to be in group therapy-nada; he is supposed to be able to go to his room when overly agitated-not happening; and he should be able to sleep in his own room-nope, he sleeps on the floor in a room with two other kids. Frustrating to say the least and anger inducing-I want to strangle someone! I'm thinking of finding an attorney to sue for malpractice or something so my youngest son can get the care he so desperately needs.